Narcissistic abuse isn’t just painful it will destroy your identity and sense of self trust. You were not and are not the problem, the narc is just scared that you will show that to the world and shatter their fragile ego.
The scars of narcissistic abuse are not visible. As survivors our scars are inside, in our self-doubt, emotional instability, and lack of self-love. Our identity and sense of self was stripped from us, now it’s time for a healing journey to recover.
Narcissistic abuse recovery is a long winding bumpy road with a ton of detours along the way, but with the right tools you can rebuild trust in yourself. I’d like to share with you some of the tools and steps I took on my journey that helped me in hopes that they can help others.
Why Narcissistic Abuse Is So Damaging to the Self
We talk about gaslighting by the narcissist, but during your narcissistic abuse recovery journey you can actually gaslight yourself with self-doubt, negative self-talk, and overthinking, installed in us by constant chronic invalidation by the narcissist.
During our narcissistic abuse recovery journey we honestly lose the ability to trust our own emotions, instincts, and decisions. After a prolonged period of being told by the narc that we did all these things wrong, we struggle to trust that we are doing it our way now, and it’s ok.
In our narcissistic abuse recovery journey we experience emotional addiction. We were on such an emotional roller coaster, that when we finally exit the ride our minds still think that is a normal function almost addicted to the ups and downs which can lead to trauma.
Your mind and emotions are so conditioned and used to the abuse when we leave the abusive pattern it is almost like we crave the abuse again, like it’s missing from our lives and we’re not sure what to do about it, in the narcissistic abuse recovery journey this is what we detox from.
The narcissist has controlled you during the relationship. They have you already fearful, like you can’t even survive without them. This leaves us in a state of fear of being alone but also a fear of staying. Being alone is always better than being abused.
I understand, I stayed way longer than I should have because of this same fear. Now that I’ve gone through narcissistic abuse recovery, I want to go back in time, and scream to myself, GO! Yes it’s hard and a lot of work, but everyday is sweeter with freedom.
The Stages of Narcissistic Abuse Recovery
- Recognition – During your narcissistic abuse recovery, recognizing and accepting what you’ve survived is key. You survived an abusive relationship, that takes courage, and resilience that no one but a survivor has.
- Separation – Narcissistic abuse recovery starts with getting out. Physical and emotional separation are necessary. How can you heal if you are still being abused? It’s like putting a band aid over your cut and then trying to cut through the band aid to cut yourself again deeper.
- Withdrawal – In your narcissistic abuse recovery you will feel withdrawl, I know it sounds strange, but this was a regular part of your life, you are grieving the future that was faked to you and bonded by the trauma because it is what you became accustomed to.
- Rebuilding – This is a fun stage. In your narcissistic abuse recovery journey this is where you get to find out who you really are. Take up hobbies, try new things, live like you’re not with a narc anymore. And start finding what brings a smile to your face and who you are.
- Empowerment – As you begin to find out who you really are in your narcissist abuse recovery journey, you start to like that person you lost in the relationship and you can start to trust yourself again, set healthy boundaries, and live a more joyful life.
How to Rebuild Trust in Yourself After Narcissistic Abuse
Narcissistic abuse recovery is undoing what was programmed into us during our relationship. It’s time to start validating your emotions. A narc has told you your feelings were wrong, they are never wrong, they are how you feel. Embarrass your emotions.
The narcissist has kept you from feeling confident in how you feel, when they remove their gas-lighting and devaluing, we as victims will pick up what they left unfinished because that’s what we always did, even when it destroys us. It’s ok to love yourself.
In the relationship decisions are usually made by the narcissist, when we leave, decision making skills are not something we come with, we have to build this skill. Start with little things. Like what color sheets you like, and work up to the bigger stuff.
In my relationship I was never allowed to have a pick up, I always had a mom mobile. So one of my first big decisions I made was to buy a pick up instead of a SUV when I needed a car. Is it practical absolutely not, but does it make me happy and piss off my ex, hell yeah.
During your narcissistic abuse recovery journey take time to reconnect with yourself and your intuition with journaling or body based awareness (paying attention to your body, mind and emotions). You are shedding trauma and cortisol from your body, you will feel it.
I noticed a belly laugh as one of my first body-based awarenesses. I thought something was wrong with my stomach, I struggled understanding the sensation in my body of this pure joy. But just as you got used to being abused, you can get used to feeling joy.
In your narcissistic abuse recovery journey, take time and find your inner critic, it probably sounds like your voice but the narcissist’s words, it may even begin with their voice. It’s that inner voice that is putting you down, you know it’s them so don’t listen to them.
Even today I still catch a slip now and then when I hear my ex’s voice in my head telling me I’ll never be anything without them, I’m going to fail, I’m going to be alone. Except now instead of listening to the words, I hear a challenge, I like to turn it into motivation instead of destruction.
Narcissistic abuse recovery needs to include self trust rituals. You are in the process of rebuilding something the narcissist has completely destroyed. Daily affirmations, Personal win tracking and rewarding, and mirror work, yes talk to yourself and express pride of yourself to yourself.
Self trust rituals sounds like a touchy feely word, but you are doing things you’ve never done before and having self trust is vital to keep up your strength. Personally I reward myself for each win.. It can be little or big, but a reward always.
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Signs You’re Starting to Heal
- You no longer obsess over their behavior – In the beginning of your narcissistic abuse recovery you will still wonder what they are doing and where they are, it’s a habit/addiction you are in the process of breaking, slowly this fades and you won’t even notice til it’s gone.
- You feel anger or sadness without guilt – What a concept, I bet you didn’t know it’s ok to be angry or sad. A narcissist trains us that it’s bad to have these feelings, because they would have usually been directed towards them, so we were taught to be guilty for these feelings.
- You’re setting boundaries and holding them – Yes your first one will feel weird, not going to lie about that, but they get easier. I love telling people the word no, now because I understand I don’t have to say yes to what I don’t want to anymore. It’s ok to say No.
- You feel safer alone than manipulated together – After the detox of the trauma bond and emotional damage, being alone feels safe and secure, looking back at the manipulation and feelings I feared for my safety for so long that being alone feels safer than ever.
- You’ve stopped blaming yourself for everything – I accept responsibility for parts of my failed relationship with a narcissist, but I do not blame myself, that’s their job. We are doing the work to improve so if anything is our blame, we are working on it.
Common Triggers & How to Handle Them
During your narcissistic abuse recovery there will be triggers you will experience. It could be a similar voice, phrase they used, figure in the crowd or a boundary violation by them or even someone else. Prepare for this as best you can, and know that it will phase out.
Practical strategies:
Grounding techniques – use breathing techniques, physical activity, visualization whatever works for you. There are tons of techniques out there, but it’s which one works for you. There is no one size fits all in these techniques.
Somatic practices – These are techniques that focus on the body and mind connection, again this is not one technique that fixes everybody. You can do the body scan, and add or remove or rework any technique to make it right for you.
Affirmation scripts – Daily affirmations are a great tool. I do mine right when I wake up. 5 positive things in my life. By doing daily affirmations you can program your mind towards a positive path, to keep you emotionally charged, repeat as needed.
Triggers are signs of recovery, not setbacks. You are leaving a life behind and starting over, there are going to be reminders, but as you create new memories, the triggers can be replaced by happy thoughts.
I have always had a love for a park and would go with my family as much as possible. In the beginning of my narcissistic abuse recovery journey, that park was full of triggers, I kept going though and making new memories, now the triggers are gone and I don’t remember them at all.
Emotional & Physical Self-Care During Recovery
Nervous system regulation is a huge step in your narcissistic abuse recovery journey. Routines and schedules are amazing for this. Schedule rest, food, sleep and anything else you need to do, it keeps you organized and knowing what to expect.
Tip – If I have a big thing like court or even a therapy session, I also add additional emotional time blocked out on my calendar. It’s about being prepared.
Emotional self-soothing is when you can soothe your own emotions. Do not confuse this with emotional bypass, where we say to ourselves oh I don’t want to feel that so I’m just not going to, I’m fine. No, you’re skipping over an emotion, not healing it.
One of the first things you will experience in a narcissistic abuse recovery journey is “The Crash” After going no contact or separating, it feels almost like a detox for an addiction, you feel like you need to check on them, but you also want to sleep for a week. It’s normal.
Healing is a daily practice; it’s not a destination on a map. And being wholly healed is different for everyone that goes through this, as is every narcissistic abuse recovery journey. No two of us had an identical situation, so there can not be an identical healing journey.
You are not broken, you were abused, so yes damaged but that’s why you are on a narcissistic abuse recovery journey. Embrace and love who you are. There is only one of you and the world deserves to know who you truly are not who the narc portrays you as.
In your personal narcissistic abuse recovery journey keep in mind that healing is returning to self not just returning to peace. You need to take the time to find out who you are and what makes you tick. You’ve had to focus on who the narc is and their likes, do the same for yourself.
Your healing will threaten the narcissist, but it will set you free. When you start to feel healed, you start to get this feeling like a caged animal being set free. It really is what a narcissistic abuse recovery journey is, it’s a path to freedom.
Knowing that a narcissist thrives on control, your freedom is their biggest fear. As you heal they feel threatened by exposure and you may even encounter narcissistic rage. But keep moving forward on your narcissistic abuse recovery journey.
I would love to say this is easy: everyone should get away from a narcissist. But it is a battle daily. No two of us will go down the same path on our narcissistic abuse recovery journey, but as I’ve gone through mine I have learned we are all here for each other on our journeys.
If I can encourage you to do any one thing on your journey it would be to connect with other survivors. When you are talking with other survivors, they have a better understanding of what you went through, some of what we go through sounds unbelievable to the inexperienced. Stay strong.
If you’re noticing signs of narcissistic abuse or you feel stuck in a narcissistic relationship, you’re not alone — and it’s not your fault. What you’re experiencing is real, and healing is possible.
For more support, visit https://www.themarymcconnell.com for free educational resources, recovery tools, and guidance to help you recognize toxic patterns, rebuild your self-trust, and move forward safely.
If you need immediate help, support is available 24/7: National Domestic Violence Hotline https://www.thehotline.org/ (1-800-799-7233), Crisis Text Line (Text HOME to 741741), and 988 (Suicide & Crisis Lifeline).
Have you dealt with a narcissist or recovered from narcissistic abuse? If you feel safe, share your experience in the comments — your story might be the moment someone else realizes they’re not “crazy,” they’re being harmed.
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